I always wonder why life is so complicated and screwed up most of the time and happiness only remains for some period of time. I always never knew why though. Sometimes I don't even know if I believe in God.

I'm a free thinker just in case you didn't know. 

I actually believe that when we die, that's simply the end of it. Your world goes black and you no longer exist. It could happen right? We all don't know. 

Maybe, if there is a God, he just wanted us to grow and learn as his creation. To learn from our mistakes and to push ourselves further than we'd ever imagine, and when we do well, we go to heaven but if we sucked, we go straight to hell. 

That makes life an exam too doesn't it, a test. 

I don't even know why I'm typing out all this, I just had a million thoughts in my head and I had to let at least a few out.